I was about to post on Thursday the 10th, but I decided against it since I had a four day weekend ahead of me with tons of plans and I'd probably have hella more stuff to write about if I left posting to Monday night. While I do have a shit ton more to write about than I did on Thursday (partly because I once again put off posting way too long), it's certainly not what I expected.
Nov 3, 2013
Oct 5, 2013
Busy Busy Bee
So my vow to post at least once a week crumbled rather quickly. What happens is about a week after I post, I will remember that I need to post. I may even begin formatting the diction of this post in my head. Then I will not post. It's a bit of a dumb process that usually ends with me posting once a month.
Anyway, enough with my shitty excuses. First off, school updates. I have melted nicely into the daily routine at my new school. I know the halls pretty well and no longer feel like I'm treading foreign territory. I'm making some new friends, although very few of them are my age, but whatever. After school clubs are going smoothly as well. ESP and Arts Council continue to conflict because they're both after school on Mondays. Newspaper keeps cancelling its Tuesday meetings so I honesty have no idea what the fuck is going on there. Articles are due today at midnight but I don't have anything to write about for the first edition, so I'm not submitting. GSA has also started up, and meetings are every Wednesday. Rose is running it, and she's doing fantastic job. Last year, GSA was such a mess you were lucky if you got five people to show up to a meeting. This year, every meeting's had at least ten people, with the second digit fluctuating anywhere between one and six. It's fucking amazing. We've got Purple Day/GSA Spirit Day coming up on the seventeenth and I am totally going to be a purple monster on that day. I have pants, a sweater, a scarf, ome hair clips, a belt, earrings, a bracelet and a pair of rainbow socks that I plan on wearing that day, as well as purple lipstick and eye shadow.
In other news of school dress-up days, we had our first Spirit Day (like school spirit, not GSA-related). I sported school colours, and after school there was a football game where my school's team was playing against, ironically enough, my old school's team. I did a double take when I saw an old classmate standing in the front foyer, and I stopped and chatted with her for a minute. Anyway, I attended the football game and hung out with Rose and some of her friends, which was super fucking fun. I didn't pay any attention to the actual game, I just sort of cheered when everyone else did, but it was still awesome.
Afterwords, I got to meet Rose's older brother for the first time, which I was cray nervous about, but it went really well. He's in his late twenties, and he has two young daughters, whom Rose was babysitting yesterday night, hence why he picked her up after the game. We went to the Timmy's across the street and he treated us to drinks and made casual conversation. I just about died at the end of the day though. He dropped me off at my house before looping back to Rose's so she could get her stuff for the night. "If you guys ever want to borrow my place for the weekend, just let me know. I won't tell mom. I'm a cool brother." Rose just looked at me like "Well I told you so, I fuckin' warned you" 'cause just earlier that day she was telling me about how her brother had given her this offer when he was asking her to babysit. I didn't know what to say, so I just sort of didn't. He gave me a hug before I went into my house. He's a sweet dude, and I know he's just trying to be a good brother, and I also know he's young enough to remember what it's like to be a teenager, but we aren't quite there yet, aside from the fact that I'm pretty sure this kid did the teenager thing a bit differently than us.
You have probably deduced from previous paragraphs that Rose and I are still dating. Things are still going fantastic, and we're approaching our six month anniversary on the fifteenth of October. I'm giddy with excitement. Six months. Half a fucking year. It feels like so little time, but at the same time so much. We're still attempting to iron out some plans for something to do to celebrate, but we have Rangers in the evening so it's gonna have to be after school. Speaking of which, that is going to be hilarious. We are going to be up on cloud fucking nine and so few people are going to get it. Anywhos, I love her to bits and I'm super pumped about everything. Ten days!
And now for a Sims update. I've been playing a lot lately. I have one file with mom dad and daughter and they have two cats who are both very fluffy. I have another file with mom mom son daughter son daughter and son and they have no pets except one time they had a turtle but then it died. My game is still fucking beautiful and I still keep forgetting to take screenshots. It's not like I don't think of it, I just get really fucking lazy. That's honestly it, I have no excuse but my own laziness.
On the music front, I have discovered two beautiful things. The first is that Panic! At The Disco uploaded the entirety of Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die, their latest CD coming out October seventh, to YouTube. I have been listening to it constantly (I'm listening to it as I type). The other band I've been listening to constantly is I Fight Dragons. They are fucking amazing. Panic! At The Disco plays punk-pop with the twist of using classical instruments (or at least they used to, their new album is super pop-y and I was really disappointed when I first heard it, but as you can see it's grown on me some bit). I Fight Dragons plays punk-pop with the twist of chiptune. For those unknowing, chiptune is taking old sound effects off of video game cartridges and making new music with them. Y'all should definitely check them out, they're fucking amazing.
That's about all I've got to say about the month of September I guess. I should really stop procrastinating and do some homework. Adios for now.
Anyway, enough with my shitty excuses. First off, school updates. I have melted nicely into the daily routine at my new school. I know the halls pretty well and no longer feel like I'm treading foreign territory. I'm making some new friends, although very few of them are my age, but whatever. After school clubs are going smoothly as well. ESP and Arts Council continue to conflict because they're both after school on Mondays. Newspaper keeps cancelling its Tuesday meetings so I honesty have no idea what the fuck is going on there. Articles are due today at midnight but I don't have anything to write about for the first edition, so I'm not submitting. GSA has also started up, and meetings are every Wednesday. Rose is running it, and she's doing fantastic job. Last year, GSA was such a mess you were lucky if you got five people to show up to a meeting. This year, every meeting's had at least ten people, with the second digit fluctuating anywhere between one and six. It's fucking amazing. We've got Purple Day/GSA Spirit Day coming up on the seventeenth and I am totally going to be a purple monster on that day. I have pants, a sweater, a scarf, ome hair clips, a belt, earrings, a bracelet and a pair of rainbow socks that I plan on wearing that day, as well as purple lipstick and eye shadow.
In other news of school dress-up days, we had our first Spirit Day (like school spirit, not GSA-related). I sported school colours, and after school there was a football game where my school's team was playing against, ironically enough, my old school's team. I did a double take when I saw an old classmate standing in the front foyer, and I stopped and chatted with her for a minute. Anyway, I attended the football game and hung out with Rose and some of her friends, which was super fucking fun. I didn't pay any attention to the actual game, I just sort of cheered when everyone else did, but it was still awesome.
Afterwords, I got to meet Rose's older brother for the first time, which I was cray nervous about, but it went really well. He's in his late twenties, and he has two young daughters, whom Rose was babysitting yesterday night, hence why he picked her up after the game. We went to the Timmy's across the street and he treated us to drinks and made casual conversation. I just about died at the end of the day though. He dropped me off at my house before looping back to Rose's so she could get her stuff for the night. "If you guys ever want to borrow my place for the weekend, just let me know. I won't tell mom. I'm a cool brother." Rose just looked at me like "Well I told you so, I fuckin' warned you" 'cause just earlier that day she was telling me about how her brother had given her this offer when he was asking her to babysit. I didn't know what to say, so I just sort of didn't. He gave me a hug before I went into my house. He's a sweet dude, and I know he's just trying to be a good brother, and I also know he's young enough to remember what it's like to be a teenager, but we aren't quite there yet, aside from the fact that I'm pretty sure this kid did the teenager thing a bit differently than us.
You have probably deduced from previous paragraphs that Rose and I are still dating. Things are still going fantastic, and we're approaching our six month anniversary on the fifteenth of October. I'm giddy with excitement. Six months. Half a fucking year. It feels like so little time, but at the same time so much. We're still attempting to iron out some plans for something to do to celebrate, but we have Rangers in the evening so it's gonna have to be after school. Speaking of which, that is going to be hilarious. We are going to be up on cloud fucking nine and so few people are going to get it. Anywhos, I love her to bits and I'm super pumped about everything. Ten days!
And now for a Sims update. I've been playing a lot lately. I have one file with mom dad and daughter and they have two cats who are both very fluffy. I have another file with mom mom son daughter son daughter and son and they have no pets except one time they had a turtle but then it died. My game is still fucking beautiful and I still keep forgetting to take screenshots. It's not like I don't think of it, I just get really fucking lazy. That's honestly it, I have no excuse but my own laziness.
On the music front, I have discovered two beautiful things. The first is that Panic! At The Disco uploaded the entirety of Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die, their latest CD coming out October seventh, to YouTube. I have been listening to it constantly (I'm listening to it as I type). The other band I've been listening to constantly is I Fight Dragons. They are fucking amazing. Panic! At The Disco plays punk-pop with the twist of using classical instruments (or at least they used to, their new album is super pop-y and I was really disappointed when I first heard it, but as you can see it's grown on me some bit). I Fight Dragons plays punk-pop with the twist of chiptune. For those unknowing, chiptune is taking old sound effects off of video game cartridges and making new music with them. Y'all should definitely check them out, they're fucking amazing.
That's about all I've got to say about the month of September I guess. I should really stop procrastinating and do some homework. Adios for now.
Sep 10, 2013
(New) School Days
I really need to stop doing the thing where I procrastinate posting on here.
I have officially been attending my new school for five full days, and it is amazing. All of my teachers are super friendly, except maybe my art teacher, I wouldn't exactly call him 'friendly' per-se, but he's still fucking awesome. My classes are going well too. I understand 95% of what is said in math class, my first art assignment is going swimmingly, English is interesting, and psychology is so fucking awesome (a lot of note taking, but it's something that I'm actually interested in, so I don't mind too much). Actually, for my first psychology assignment, I basically have to do a social experiment. I have a bunch of ideas, I just have to whittle them down and get the chosen one approved by my teacher and I'm off to the races.
I've gone to my first E.S.P. (Essential Student Partnership) meeting, my first Arts Council meeting, and my first Newspaper Club meeting. I'm thinking of contacting someone soon about starting up a rock climbing team, since there was one at my old school and it was loads of fun. I know it'll be a success because though the team only ran one of the two years I was at my old school, the teachers said they always had a huge turn out every year they ran it, and the one year I participated, they almost had to do tryouts (there were around thirty kids on the team).
I'm making great friends with some of Rose's pals, and some of the people from that group I mentioned a couple other times, the anti-bully thing. I'm becoming friends with their friends as well. I've been sitting with one of the girls at lunch. (I should really give these people names, they're all definitely going to be coming up a lot in future posts.)
As you may have noticed, I mentioned Rose in that last paragraph. Yes, her and I are still dating. Five months this Sunday. On Saturday, my family's hosting a party for my mom's side of the family. It's going to be for my brother's birthday, my nanna's birthday, and my grandparents' wedding anniversary. Rose is going to be coming, and I'm fucking stoked. I've been waiting forever for her to be able to meet my mom's side of the family.
Outside of school, we have computer news. I officially have a super shiny super fast Windows 7 computer. Do you remember my new years post where I talked about the computer that worked Sims 3 like a fucking charm? Yeah, that computer is officially MINE! I'm not posting from there right now, though. I'm still on my laptop for now. We have yet to transfer all of my files and bookmarks and such to the new computer. When we do, my dad's going to take my laptop and try and fix the screen. The computer itself is in working condition, just a bit fussy and laggy due to age, but the screen is the real fuck up that ruins it. Hopefully my dad doesn't burn something else out trying to fix this, but that motherboard he blew was his first screw up with this stuff ever. He's been fixing up our home computers himself since out family's very first computer the year I was born, 1997. He overclocked it so it would run at 100 megabytes instead of 50. Reminder: 1000 megabytes go into one gigabyte. We now have computers that run with two terabytes of memory, and a terabyte is 1000 gigabytes. Oh, how far technology has come.
Anyways, that's about it for now I suppose. I'm going to start trying to post weekly from now on, but it's going to be hard because shit's going to whirlwind from here. Lots of stuff with homework, Arts Council, ESP, anti-bully, newpaper, Best Buddies is going to start up, my first Rangers meeting is next week (Girl Guides of Canada grades ten to twelve), and a whole bunch of other shit. I might even get back into the Simming community now that I have a beautifully working game. (Modeling comps? Modeling comps. I love that shit.) Who knows what curve balls are going to be coming my way in the near future? Life is fucking insane. But I'm just gonna role with it, because right now, things are pretty good. One day at a time, and everything's going to be okay.
I have officially been attending my new school for five full days, and it is amazing. All of my teachers are super friendly, except maybe my art teacher, I wouldn't exactly call him 'friendly' per-se, but he's still fucking awesome. My classes are going well too. I understand 95% of what is said in math class, my first art assignment is going swimmingly, English is interesting, and psychology is so fucking awesome (a lot of note taking, but it's something that I'm actually interested in, so I don't mind too much). Actually, for my first psychology assignment, I basically have to do a social experiment. I have a bunch of ideas, I just have to whittle them down and get the chosen one approved by my teacher and I'm off to the races.
I've gone to my first E.S.P. (Essential Student Partnership) meeting, my first Arts Council meeting, and my first Newspaper Club meeting. I'm thinking of contacting someone soon about starting up a rock climbing team, since there was one at my old school and it was loads of fun. I know it'll be a success because though the team only ran one of the two years I was at my old school, the teachers said they always had a huge turn out every year they ran it, and the one year I participated, they almost had to do tryouts (there were around thirty kids on the team).
I'm making great friends with some of Rose's pals, and some of the people from that group I mentioned a couple other times, the anti-bully thing. I'm becoming friends with their friends as well. I've been sitting with one of the girls at lunch. (I should really give these people names, they're all definitely going to be coming up a lot in future posts.)
As you may have noticed, I mentioned Rose in that last paragraph. Yes, her and I are still dating. Five months this Sunday. On Saturday, my family's hosting a party for my mom's side of the family. It's going to be for my brother's birthday, my nanna's birthday, and my grandparents' wedding anniversary. Rose is going to be coming, and I'm fucking stoked. I've been waiting forever for her to be able to meet my mom's side of the family.
Outside of school, we have computer news. I officially have a super shiny super fast Windows 7 computer. Do you remember my new years post where I talked about the computer that worked Sims 3 like a fucking charm? Yeah, that computer is officially MINE! I'm not posting from there right now, though. I'm still on my laptop for now. We have yet to transfer all of my files and bookmarks and such to the new computer. When we do, my dad's going to take my laptop and try and fix the screen. The computer itself is in working condition, just a bit fussy and laggy due to age, but the screen is the real fuck up that ruins it. Hopefully my dad doesn't burn something else out trying to fix this, but that motherboard he blew was his first screw up with this stuff ever. He's been fixing up our home computers himself since out family's very first computer the year I was born, 1997. He overclocked it so it would run at 100 megabytes instead of 50. Reminder: 1000 megabytes go into one gigabyte. We now have computers that run with two terabytes of memory, and a terabyte is 1000 gigabytes. Oh, how far technology has come.
Anyways, that's about it for now I suppose. I'm going to start trying to post weekly from now on, but it's going to be hard because shit's going to whirlwind from here. Lots of stuff with homework, Arts Council, ESP, anti-bully, newpaper, Best Buddies is going to start up, my first Rangers meeting is next week (Girl Guides of Canada grades ten to twelve), and a whole bunch of other shit. I might even get back into the Simming community now that I have a beautifully working game. (Modeling comps? Modeling comps. I love that shit.) Who knows what curve balls are going to be coming my way in the near future? Life is fucking insane. But I'm just gonna role with it, because right now, things are pretty good. One day at a time, and everything's going to be okay.
Aug 27, 2013
The Sims 4 (and various other things)
Yeah yeah, I'm late for the train, but whatever. I'm only late because lately I just haven't been giving a shite about it.
I'll stick with Sims 2 and 3 for now. Sims 4 looks okay, and I adore the changes to CAS, but that's not enough for me to buy it when it comes out. The new emotions system is intriguing (though it kills me inside that they used some dumbass "love triangle" bullshit to show it off). As for the graphics which everyone seems to be kicking up a storm about, I do believe they look like a crossbreed between Sims 2 and 3, and I much prefer the graphics in Sims 3. Anyway, I don't see the reason to make too much of a fuss about it when there will eventually be a variety of default skin replacements, as well as default eyes and hair retextures to boot. I certainly don't doubt that.
I would be concerned about my laptop's ability to handle such a current game, especially since it can barely run Sims 3, but I'm going to be getting a new computer. I was supposed to inherit my dad's old computer, but he was doing some work on it and may have shot the motherboard. We're not really sure what we're gonna do about that or what's happening next, but I guess we'll just have to see what happens as time goes on.
Speaking of time going on, I've got my registration day at my new school tomorrow. Basically, I'm gonna go in, pay school fees, get my picture taken for the year book and for my student I.D. card, and probably some other stuff but right now I really have no fucking idea. I'll probably post more later. Bye for now.
I'll stick with Sims 2 and 3 for now. Sims 4 looks okay, and I adore the changes to CAS, but that's not enough for me to buy it when it comes out. The new emotions system is intriguing (though it kills me inside that they used some dumbass "love triangle" bullshit to show it off). As for the graphics which everyone seems to be kicking up a storm about, I do believe they look like a crossbreed between Sims 2 and 3, and I much prefer the graphics in Sims 3. Anyway, I don't see the reason to make too much of a fuss about it when there will eventually be a variety of default skin replacements, as well as default eyes and hair retextures to boot. I certainly don't doubt that.
I would be concerned about my laptop's ability to handle such a current game, especially since it can barely run Sims 3, but I'm going to be getting a new computer. I was supposed to inherit my dad's old computer, but he was doing some work on it and may have shot the motherboard. We're not really sure what we're gonna do about that or what's happening next, but I guess we'll just have to see what happens as time goes on.
Speaking of time going on, I've got my registration day at my new school tomorrow. Basically, I'm gonna go in, pay school fees, get my picture taken for the year book and for my student I.D. card, and probably some other stuff but right now I really have no fucking idea. I'll probably post more later. Bye for now.
Aug 16, 2013
One Month Later...
I've been meaning to post since mid-July, so this is kinda late, but whatever.
Summer's been going swimmingly. Lots of Animal Crossing and staying up late and sleeping in and lazing around the house, as well as lazing around local parks with Rose. Yes, the two of us are still going strong. Yesterday was our four month anniversary, and guess what? She's at camp again. Oh well, she's getting back tomorrow and I'm stoked. I really hope I can see her some time on Saturday because I know she's busy on Sunday. On the 15th of July, our three month anniversary, she found out that her grandmother passed away the day before. That's put a little a hiccup in some of our summer plans, 'cause she's been a bit down in the dumps since then. The funeral is on Sunday, so she isn't going to be feeling very good on Monday either, but we're going to meet up with the anti-bully club previously mentioned (the one I went to the year-end party for), so hopefully that'll cheer her up a bit.
The rest of my summer should be okay. I've got a few key dates coming up at the end of August. The 19th, of course, I will be chilling with the anti-bully team. The 20th I'll be visiting my aunt who just moved. On the 24th Rose is doing a fifteen minute poetry set for a fundraiser, which I wouldn't miss for the world. The 27th is my orientation day at my new school, which Rose will be helping out at. The 28th is Rose's birthday, and the 29th I'm hoping is the date I'll be able to have her birthday party (I'm planning her a birthday party [it'll basically just be some of her friends from school and elsewhere]). My new school has Grade Nine Day on the first day of school (only the grade nines go in so they can get used to the school in peace) so my first day is the 4th, which I am shitting my pants about (both excited and scared). The days in between will be filled with the occasional shopping trip ('cause all of my clothes are too small again and I also need some new school supplies) and hopefully quite a few lazy days with Rose.
That's pretty much life right now. This are about to pick up, and I am way fucking excited. Rose gets back tomorrow and I miss her like crazy. I've been leaving her Facebook messages every day (and the occasional text, but last time she went to camp I texted her a lot and she didn't get a bunch of them, so I've tried to keep that to a minimum this time). Then there's all of the stuff I listed above, and oh my god starting at my new school I'm shitting my fucking pants I mean I am so fucking excited but at the same time it's scary but it's like a good scary because this is gonna be really good and so much better than my old school !!!!!
Summer's been going swimmingly. Lots of Animal Crossing and staying up late and sleeping in and lazing around the house, as well as lazing around local parks with Rose. Yes, the two of us are still going strong. Yesterday was our four month anniversary, and guess what? She's at camp again. Oh well, she's getting back tomorrow and I'm stoked. I really hope I can see her some time on Saturday because I know she's busy on Sunday. On the 15th of July, our three month anniversary, she found out that her grandmother passed away the day before. That's put a little a hiccup in some of our summer plans, 'cause she's been a bit down in the dumps since then. The funeral is on Sunday, so she isn't going to be feeling very good on Monday either, but we're going to meet up with the anti-bully club previously mentioned (the one I went to the year-end party for), so hopefully that'll cheer her up a bit.
The rest of my summer should be okay. I've got a few key dates coming up at the end of August. The 19th, of course, I will be chilling with the anti-bully team. The 20th I'll be visiting my aunt who just moved. On the 24th Rose is doing a fifteen minute poetry set for a fundraiser, which I wouldn't miss for the world. The 27th is my orientation day at my new school, which Rose will be helping out at. The 28th is Rose's birthday, and the 29th I'm hoping is the date I'll be able to have her birthday party (I'm planning her a birthday party [it'll basically just be some of her friends from school and elsewhere]). My new school has Grade Nine Day on the first day of school (only the grade nines go in so they can get used to the school in peace) so my first day is the 4th, which I am shitting my pants about (both excited and scared). The days in between will be filled with the occasional shopping trip ('cause all of my clothes are too small again and I also need some new school supplies) and hopefully quite a few lazy days with Rose.
That's pretty much life right now. This are about to pick up, and I am way fucking excited. Rose gets back tomorrow and I miss her like crazy. I've been leaving her Facebook messages every day (and the occasional text, but last time she went to camp I texted her a lot and she didn't get a bunch of them, so I've tried to keep that to a minimum this time). Then there's all of the stuff I listed above, and oh my god starting at my new school I'm shitting my fucking pants I mean I am so fucking excited but at the same time it's scary but it's like a good scary because this is gonna be really good and so much better than my old school !!!!!
Yo I am way too excited right now
~BookyGirl16~
Jul 7, 2013
Sweet, Sweet Summer
It's finally summer vacation, and thank whatever higher-up for that. I haven't had to see the halls of my old school since Tuesday, June 25, when I had my last exam. Goodbye, hellhole. Hello, beautiful new life.
My new school is so promising. I'm already very involved with the Arts Council (after my last exam I went to a local rec centre and helped set up for the school's graduation) and I'm going to be co-pres of an anti-bully club with Rose, the members of which I have met and are fucking awesome. Actually, Thursday the 27th I went to an end-of-the-year party with said members. It was supposed to be a movie night, but nobody actually brought any movies, so we sat outside for most of the evening. We talked about life and did a photo session since one of the girls is a photographer, and she brought her fancy-ass camera and shit. The photo quality is nice, but they're all really goofy and fun and not professional at all.
Speaking of those photos, there was a small bit of controversy surrounding them. The girl with the camera uploaded the pictures to Facebook and tagged everyone in their respective shots. There were three pictures in there of Rose and I being couple-y and whatever. Y'all know where this is going. You've heard this story before.
Enter my grandmother, who apparently caught a glance of them when my cousin was looking at his Facebook newsfeed. He then notified Rose, who notified me. I immediately removed the album from my timeline, untagged myself and requested for the pictures to be taken down. Since the request was made, the pictures were no longer publicly visible to anyone but myself, and my grandma (who later started searching for them, apparently) never found them. Crisis averted. Barely.
My grandmother had been stirring up some other shit as well. My cousin recently informed me that she can be quoted as saying that she would be disappointed if any of her grandchildren turned out to be gay.
Well, I have a few choice words for her.
You know fucking what? You be disappointed. Be as disappointed as you fucking want. Be disappointed, be ashamed, shun me if you want to, I don't fucking care. If you have a problem with my sexuality, you can shove it up your ass because my sexuality does not concern you. Your disappointment is not going to stop me from being who I am and being proud of who I am. Go fuck a tree you old bigoted buzzard.
That was... incredibly rude of me, actually. But it's nice to get my thoughts on paper (?), so fuck it, I'm not taking that out.
No real way to transition to anything here, so I'm just gonna say speaking of Rose, our relationship is fantastic as ever. She's at summer camp right now. She left on Thursday, and she'll be back on Saturday the 13th or Sunday the 14th, I'm not sure which day. Either way, Monday the 15th marks three months and I'm very excited. We won't be able to see each other that day, though. She's got prior obligations with a friend. It's her friend's birthday, and everyone else is on vacation, so Rose is the only person she can really celebrate with. It's all good. I hope Rose has fun. I know she will. She'll still be buzzed from camp. Whenever she gets back from camp, she's always got this post-camp buzz. Still full of energy and bouncing off the walls. It is so fucking adorable. I am so sorry, I'm just going to stop right here. (I try pretty hard not to be too couple-y and shit on here, I know no one wants to see that crap.) Anywhos, hopefully we can get together some other day during the week.
In other news, Animal Crossing: New Leaf has taken over my life. I got a 3DS on the 25th and Animal Crossing on the 26th. Since then, I have put almost forty-six hours into that game. I have had it for a week and a half. On average, that's around four hours per day. Kinda scary really. It's such a fucking amazing game though seriously oh my god it's so good I need to stop though it is totally taking over my life.
Why do I never know how to end my posts here have a shitty graphic ?????????????????????
Jun 23, 2013
Quote of the Day: Teen Angst
"You know what? Just shut up and let me be an angst-y teenager. I'm sixteen, it's the perfect time."
- Me, a couple minutes ago or something
- Me, a couple minutes ago or something
Jun 1, 2013
The Sims 4
I finally got around to reading all of the available info about The Sims 4 (basically I just read everything here).
The first thing I noticed is that it looks like there won't be any major graphics changes, but those faces sure do look a lot more smoothed out. Not sure if I like that hair texture though. Seems kinda plastic rather than realistic. Same with the eyes; they seem kinda fake. It is a video game, but they're striving for some semblance of realism, right? I can get better stuff from CC makers. I'll probably end up replacing all of the textures on my own if that's what keeps, but we'll see. After all, those are just announcement screenshots from very, very early in production. They're bound to change (and hopefully they will).
The second thing I noticed was the emphasis on "single-player offline experience." I guess that SimCity disaster really taught them a lesson, and that lesson was that everyone will hate you if you make your game only available to people with internet connections because not everyone has an internet connection and not everyone wants to play online and some people's computers just can't handle that shit and your own fucking servers can't even handle that shit and really the list goes on.
Anyway, despite my signature dash of negativity shown here, I'm super pumped for The Sims 4. My only concern will be whether on not my fucking computer will be able to play it properly. My laptop won't be able to for sure. It's an absolute fucking mess, and it can barely run Sims 3. Sims 2 runs almost like a charm; without custom content, it can run lag-free with all of the graphics settings at their highest. With custom content and all of the highest graphics settings, there are bouts of lag every once in a while, but it's still fairly smooth.
I should have a new computer by then though. My parents have been trying to replace my desk for a while now, and my laptop is totally dead. I can't even remember the last time I looked at this screen and it wasn't covered in weird fucking dots, such as:
That would be my desktop wallpaper. This is what it is supposed to look like.
That would be me editing this post on Blogger in Chrome. You probably know what that's supposed to look like.
My parents want me to get a desktop now, and I kind of agree. I love the portability of my laptop, but I hardly ever brought it anywhere and I do that even less so now that the screen is shot and it's turning to shit. A desktop would give me a faster computer, not to mention a better (and replacable) graphics card for playing games (basically just Sims).
Anywho, that's all I've got to say. I'll leave you with this to keep you entertained.
The first thing I noticed is that it looks like there won't be any major graphics changes, but those faces sure do look a lot more smoothed out. Not sure if I like that hair texture though. Seems kinda plastic rather than realistic. Same with the eyes; they seem kinda fake. It is a video game, but they're striving for some semblance of realism, right? I can get better stuff from CC makers. I'll probably end up replacing all of the textures on my own if that's what keeps, but we'll see. After all, those are just announcement screenshots from very, very early in production. They're bound to change (and hopefully they will).
The second thing I noticed was the emphasis on "single-player offline experience." I guess that SimCity disaster really taught them a lesson, and that lesson was that everyone will hate you if you make your game only available to people with internet connections because not everyone has an internet connection and not everyone wants to play online and some people's computers just can't handle that shit and your own fucking servers can't even handle that shit and really the list goes on.
Anyway, despite my signature dash of negativity shown here, I'm super pumped for The Sims 4. My only concern will be whether on not my fucking computer will be able to play it properly. My laptop won't be able to for sure. It's an absolute fucking mess, and it can barely run Sims 3. Sims 2 runs almost like a charm; without custom content, it can run lag-free with all of the graphics settings at their highest. With custom content and all of the highest graphics settings, there are bouts of lag every once in a while, but it's still fairly smooth.
I should have a new computer by then though. My parents have been trying to replace my desk for a while now, and my laptop is totally dead. I can't even remember the last time I looked at this screen and it wasn't covered in weird fucking dots, such as:
That would be my desktop wallpaper. This is what it is supposed to look like.
That would be me editing this post on Blogger in Chrome. You probably know what that's supposed to look like.
My parents want me to get a desktop now, and I kind of agree. I love the portability of my laptop, but I hardly ever brought it anywhere and I do that even less so now that the screen is shot and it's turning to shit. A desktop would give me a faster computer, not to mention a better (and replacable) graphics card for playing games (basically just Sims).
Anywho, that's all I've got to say. I'll leave you with this to keep you entertained.
May 25, 2013
Life Crap
Sorry I haven't posted here in over a month. Life's been pretty good lately.
Things with Rose and I are fantastic. Our relationship is absolutely flourishing, I couldn't be happier. Just yesterday, in the park that's basically become our go-to place whenever we hang out after school, we finally shared our first "I love you"s after reading each other some really cheesy-ass poetry we wrote. Yeah yeah, we write each other poetry. (Now of course my shitty ass amateur poetry is nothing compared to Rose's. She doesn't just write poetry for the purposes of romancing. She writes all sorts of poetry, and let me tell you, she is a fucking amazing poet. She can freestyle too, and she's really really good at it.) Anyway, I really do love her, with all of my being. She is honestly one of the best people who's ever entered my life.
I got my wisdom teeth out last Friday (the seventeenth). It wasn't that bad, but over the weekend my cheeks balooned like crazy. It was terrible. I ended up missing a second day of school on Tuesday (Monday was Victoria Day, look it up). It still hurts, but not that bad. I can mostly eat normal food now, but jello and pudding remain the only things that I can eat painlessly.
It's almost June, which means school is almost over, halle-fuckin'-lujah. I can't wait. The one thing that stops me in my cheering tracks is the fact that I have four culminating projects due within the next few weeks. Those are the only things standing in the way of me and summer vacation. Those and exams. But honestly, exams are a piece of cake compared to these shitty ass culminating projects.
Yeah I don't know how to end this so here you go
Apr 15, 2013
16
I just realized I totally missed making a post on my birthday as I usually do, but I'll make up for it today.
Friday, April 12th I had my celebration with my family. It was a nice calm evening. I spent a lot of time in my room, listening to my new CD (Wretched and Divine by Black Veil Brides) and reading The Umbrella Academy: Apocalypse Suite. Food was good. Preparations were made for the next day.
Saturday, April 13th was my actual birthday, and it was the best. We had my family party, and I'd also invited Rose to come ('cause she just had to meet my whacked out family). The day was uneventful but pleasant. I hung out with Rose and my cousins. We played video games and talked. The day was mostly plain, except a letter that Rose gave me that was absolutely beautiful and it made my week.
Jump to today. I met up with Rose at her school (which I am officially transferring to oeoiogdslg) and we painted banners for an event. Then we walked home.
While we were walking home it was revealed that Rose has had the largest crush on me for the longest time. To put a long story full of flustered explanations and giggles short, I asked her out and we're going to go on a date sometime in the near future.(Honestly, y'all should have seen this one coming a mile away, but I suppose some people *cough* these assholes *cough* were a little preoccupied with the fact that I had a close male friend. I don't talk to Tom any more, by the way. He turned into a dick and we stopped walking home.)
That message was far more composed than I myself am whilst typing it. Anyway, that's how my past few days have been going.
So far, I like being 16.
Friday, April 12th I had my celebration with my family. It was a nice calm evening. I spent a lot of time in my room, listening to my new CD (Wretched and Divine by Black Veil Brides) and reading The Umbrella Academy: Apocalypse Suite. Food was good. Preparations were made for the next day.
Saturday, April 13th was my actual birthday, and it was the best. We had my family party, and I'd also invited Rose to come ('cause she just had to meet my whacked out family). The day was uneventful but pleasant. I hung out with Rose and my cousins. We played video games and talked. The day was mostly plain, except a letter that Rose gave me that was absolutely beautiful and it made my week.
Jump to today. I met up with Rose at her school (which I am officially transferring to oeoiogdslg) and we painted banners for an event. Then we walked home.
While we were walking home it was revealed that Rose has had the largest crush on me for the longest time. To put a long story full of flustered explanations and giggles short, I asked her out and we're going to go on a date sometime in the near future.(Honestly, y'all should have seen this one coming a mile away, but I suppose some people *cough* these assholes *cough* were a little preoccupied with the fact that I had a close male friend. I don't talk to Tom any more, by the way. He turned into a dick and we stopped walking home.)
That message was far more composed than I myself am whilst typing it. Anyway, that's how my past few days have been going.
So far, I like being 16.
Apr 2, 2013
Giving Up
I have given up on email. I fucked something up in Windows Mail (which is where I have been organizing my email in all the way back to 2006, it's all still there [sort of]) and now I have no idea what the fuck is even going on therefore I have given up on trying to keep up with any email at all ever again.
Mar 31, 2013
Happy Easter
I do realize I have not updated in a while. Nine days, to be exact.
Even now I only come with seasons greetings. There hasn't been much to post about as of late. I suppose I could try and throw something together though.
It's Easter weekend, and I've been visiting family. Food's been good. My cousins are a bunch of lovely goons, as usual. I wore a pair of black and white thigh-high striped socks to my grandma's today. My grandpa called me a zebra, she called me Raggedy Ann, one of my uncles called me Pippi Longstockings, and the other called me the Hamburglar. Wonderful. Never wearing those socks up there again.
I've been reading a play through of the Japanese PSP game Dangan Ronpa. It's fucking great.
Not much else to say. Have a wonderful week <3
Mar 23, 2013
My Chemical Romance
My Chemical Romance broke up today.
I found this out four hours ago and I'm still in the shock/denial stage of grief.
I have spent my entire evening on Tumblr lamenting with fellow members of the MCRmy and it was actually really nice because the MCR fandom is usually quiet but motherfucker we were all over the fuckin' place today.
I'm still sort of refusing to believe this though and every time I come across another bit of evidence that yes, this shit is true, it's like another huge blow to my face.
When I first found out, I had to hold back tears. I immediately went to Tumblr to connect with other fans. I slipped The Black Parade into my CD player and tried my best to sing along, but I was choking up too much, especially with Welcome to the Black Parade, the first MCR song I ever heard.
My Chemical Romance was the first band I really, truly fell in love with. They introduced me to alternative music as a whole. They taught me that it's okay to not be okay, that being a freak is not a curse but a blessing, to stay true to myself, and to keep pushing through rough times because there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. They helped me be myself, even if that meant sticking out like a sore thumb. This band has been a miracle in my life, and now that they're done I don't know what to do.
The one thing that pisses me off was how they told us they split. This is the post they left us.
Are you fucking kidding me?! So cold, so blunt so near-emotionless. Just one paragraph. Twelve years of amazing music and moments with fans and touring and time on the road and recording and four albums and their farewell post consisted of a single fucking paragraph. I expected more of them. I'm disappointed.
But I still love them to bits. They make amazing music with a fantastic message and they had such a great connection with their fans. Their motto was "MCR saved my life," because it saved Gerard Way's life twice and it saved countless other fans' lives.
They had a great run. I hope they don't totally disappear.
I wish them luck in the future.
*quiet sobbing*
I found this out four hours ago and I'm still in the shock/denial stage of grief.
I have spent my entire evening on Tumblr lamenting with fellow members of the MCRmy and it was actually really nice because the MCR fandom is usually quiet but motherfucker we were all over the fuckin' place today.
I'm still sort of refusing to believe this though and every time I come across another bit of evidence that yes, this shit is true, it's like another huge blow to my face.
When I first found out, I had to hold back tears. I immediately went to Tumblr to connect with other fans. I slipped The Black Parade into my CD player and tried my best to sing along, but I was choking up too much, especially with Welcome to the Black Parade, the first MCR song I ever heard.
My Chemical Romance was the first band I really, truly fell in love with. They introduced me to alternative music as a whole. They taught me that it's okay to not be okay, that being a freak is not a curse but a blessing, to stay true to myself, and to keep pushing through rough times because there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. They helped me be myself, even if that meant sticking out like a sore thumb. This band has been a miracle in my life, and now that they're done I don't know what to do.
The one thing that pisses me off was how they told us they split. This is the post they left us.
Are you fucking kidding me?! So cold, so blunt so near-emotionless. Just one paragraph. Twelve years of amazing music and moments with fans and touring and time on the road and recording and four albums and their farewell post consisted of a single fucking paragraph. I expected more of them. I'm disappointed.
But I still love them to bits. They make amazing music with a fantastic message and they had such a great connection with their fans. Their motto was "MCR saved my life," because it saved Gerard Way's life twice and it saved countless other fans' lives.
They had a great run. I hope they don't totally disappear.
I wish them luck in the future.
*quiet sobbing*
Mar 8, 2013
March Break
Today, school let out for March break, and thank god.
Classes were relatively boring. My only full class was math because my jackass teacher decided to put our test on Friday. That was first period. There were twelve people in English, eight people in gym, and I wasn't able to count how many people were present in art, but surprisingly enough, despite the fact that it was a last period class, I'd say around half of the class was present. Other than my math class, we didn't do anything too exciting. We were in the weight centre for gym, though. Talk about embarrassing. I have no upper body strength.
Anyway, tomorrow I have to go to a friend's birthday party. I honestly have no idea why she invited me, though. I sit with her at lunch, but we never really talk, and whenever she's been in my classes, she ignores me for the other bitches who she's invited to her party. The gossip bitches who have nothing better to do than sit around and talk shit about other people. Friend A and Friend B (who I've mentioned before) will also be there, and it will most likely be the three of us sitting in a corner while everyone else fucks around. I've explained the situation to my parents, and my mom will pick me up early if I really can't bear it.
Those are really the only solid plans I have right now. I want to get as much sleep as possible. I want to play Sims. I want to watch some movies and hang out with Rose at some point (probably next Sunday, she's off at camp all week).
Hopefully I'll get some time to change my blog theme, because, let's be serious, this one's getting old. Plus most of you don't read Homestuck and probably don't really get it anyway. I think I'm just going to make it a bit generic, but sunshiney. I've had mostly dark/black themes for a while now. It's time to open the damn curtains in here.
Also to do with blog maintenance, I've been thinking of sorting out the tags for a while. I made those tags when "WIN" and "FAIL" were 'in' things, but now they just look ridiculous and out of date. There are also a ton of tags with only one or two posts (most of those are modeling comps I never followed up on h a), so I'll probably make a general tag for those and eliminate all of the separate things.
I don't know how to end this post now.
Classes were relatively boring. My only full class was math because my jackass teacher decided to put our test on Friday. That was first period. There were twelve people in English, eight people in gym, and I wasn't able to count how many people were present in art, but surprisingly enough, despite the fact that it was a last period class, I'd say around half of the class was present. Other than my math class, we didn't do anything too exciting. We were in the weight centre for gym, though. Talk about embarrassing. I have no upper body strength.
Anyway, tomorrow I have to go to a friend's birthday party. I honestly have no idea why she invited me, though. I sit with her at lunch, but we never really talk, and whenever she's been in my classes, she ignores me for the other bitches who she's invited to her party. The gossip bitches who have nothing better to do than sit around and talk shit about other people. Friend A and Friend B (who I've mentioned before) will also be there, and it will most likely be the three of us sitting in a corner while everyone else fucks around. I've explained the situation to my parents, and my mom will pick me up early if I really can't bear it.
Those are really the only solid plans I have right now. I want to get as much sleep as possible. I want to play Sims. I want to watch some movies and hang out with Rose at some point (probably next Sunday, she's off at camp all week).
Hopefully I'll get some time to change my blog theme, because, let's be serious, this one's getting old. Plus most of you don't read Homestuck and probably don't really get it anyway. I think I'm just going to make it a bit generic, but sunshiney. I've had mostly dark/black themes for a while now. It's time to open the damn curtains in here.
Also to do with blog maintenance, I've been thinking of sorting out the tags for a while. I made those tags when "WIN" and "FAIL" were 'in' things, but now they just look ridiculous and out of date. There are also a ton of tags with only one or two posts (most of those are modeling comps I never followed up on h a), so I'll probably make a general tag for those and eliminate all of the separate things.
I don't know how to end this post now.
Mar 3, 2013
Quote of the Day: Procrastination
"Procrastination as a method of productivity is never a good idea."
- Me, ten seconds ago
- Me, ten seconds ago
Mar 1, 2013
My Chemical Romance - Conventional Weapons Review
Zero out of ten.
All of the songs are gloriously amazing as usual but it automatically gets zero out of ten because they aren't releasing it on CD format.
I mean seriously, what the fuck? Not everyone has an iPod/iTunes, and who the fuck cares about all of the stupid hipsters they're pandering to by releasing Conventional Weapons on vinyl? They are't worthy of My Chem's glory.
Also, they're losing a shit ton of money by not releasing a CD.
I am very bitter about this.
Feb 27, 2013
Just a side note...
"...he turned out to have gender preference of gay..."
This made me laugh so hard oh my god thank you stilljustme2 this made my fricking day
Feb 24, 2013
Aging Up
Today I went back into my game and there was a lot of aging up to speak of.
Ronald aged from a kitten to a cat. I should have named him Hermione because he is no longer orange and Hermione is an accurate description of his fur.
Brandon and Lily (the "child from another marriage") both aged up too. They are now both teenagers. Brandon's Lifetime Aspiration is the Popularity Aspiration and Lily's Lifetime Aspiration is the Family Aspiration.
Not much else happened. yeah
Ronald aged from a kitten to a cat. I should have named him Hermione because he is no longer orange and Hermione is an accurate description of his fur.
Brandon and Lily (the "child from another marriage") both aged up too. They are now both teenagers. Brandon's Lifetime Aspiration is the Popularity Aspiration and Lily's Lifetime Aspiration is the Family Aspiration.
Not much else happened. yeah
Back Into Sims
Yesterday I went back into Sims 2, and god it was so good to get back into the game.
I went into the first file I'd ever created. At the start, it was just me and my dog, Heather. Eventually I adopted a son who I named Brandon, but since I was a fucking disaster at raising kids in Sims 2, Brandon failed out of school and got taken away :) After that, when I realized that my simself was nearing old age, I ran out and seduced the first man I found into marrying me and procreating. They had a son, who I also named Brandon (because I was a creative little fucker). This child was successful. I wanted them to have another child, but by now my simself was old and unable to have any more babies. So I got creative and added another child to the household, one that I created in CAS. I pretended it was Leonid's (the asshole I married) child from another marriage. What gave me this idea, I have no fucking idea.
And that's about where I left that file for quite some time. When I went back in, I played for about one in-game day and Heather died :( This made me very upset because Heather the sim collie was based off of Heather the real collie, my dog. When I went downstairs, I was actually incredibly releaved to find that Heather the real collie was still bright eyed and bushy tailed and not old/near death. The next in-game day I had them adopt an orange kitten, who I named Ronald after Ronald Weasley.
I thought I would have more to say about my venture into sims but I guess I don't? Oh well. I'll probably go back in later today. Last night I finally started reading the first Scott Pilgram book.
I really don't have anything else to say and I have no idea how to end this post so here have a random screencap from Sims 3.
I went into the first file I'd ever created. At the start, it was just me and my dog, Heather. Eventually I adopted a son who I named Brandon, but since I was a fucking disaster at raising kids in Sims 2, Brandon failed out of school and got taken away :) After that, when I realized that my simself was nearing old age, I ran out and seduced the first man I found into marrying me and procreating. They had a son, who I also named Brandon (because I was a creative little fucker). This child was successful. I wanted them to have another child, but by now my simself was old and unable to have any more babies. So I got creative and added another child to the household, one that I created in CAS. I pretended it was Leonid's (the asshole I married) child from another marriage. What gave me this idea, I have no fucking idea.
And that's about where I left that file for quite some time. When I went back in, I played for about one in-game day and Heather died :( This made me very upset because Heather the sim collie was based off of Heather the real collie, my dog. When I went downstairs, I was actually incredibly releaved to find that Heather the real collie was still bright eyed and bushy tailed and not old/near death. The next in-game day I had them adopt an orange kitten, who I named Ronald after Ronald Weasley.
I thought I would have more to say about my venture into sims but I guess I don't? Oh well. I'll probably go back in later today. Last night I finally started reading the first Scott Pilgram book.
I really don't have anything else to say and I have no idea how to end this post so here have a random screencap from Sims 3.
This is actually from the first legacy I ever tried to do I just found out that somehow EVERY SINGLE SCREENCAP I'VE EVER DONE is still logged on my computer oh god
Feb 9, 2013
Changes
This blog has basically turned into me whining about life so I am going to try and change that in the near future. Good day.
Feb 1, 2013
First Semester = DONE! (and other tales from my hiatus)
WARNING: This post has generally terrible continuity
So I am finally finished first semester, praise Jesus. History was hell. I'm so glad it's over. I'm pretty sure I passed (I sure as hell hope I did). Now I just have to worry about science. I wasn't doing too good for a bit, but I got 100% on my CPT (culminating progress task, worth 10% of my mark) so that must have brought it up a bit. But them I went into the exam and probably fucked my mark. I had no idea what I was doing for half of the test. I ended up completely bullshitting it by doing things like putting a Wisdom of Confucius quote beside my BS answer (It does not matter how fast you go, so long as you do not stop) and answering a question about the "attitude" of an image with "sassy." I should be okay though.
In other news, I am sick. My nose won't stop dripping and if I wasn't jacked on Sinutab I'd probably be in bed writing my last will and testimony. Fucking wonderful. Hopefully I'm better by Monday, I'd like to be at school for the first day of second semester.
Now I'm going to talk about a bit of mistrust and homophobia. Let's start back at the beginning of January. Rose found this really awesome GSA set up on the next town over (it would only be a 20 minute drive though). It's basically a small support group for any LGBT person 26 and under that meets once a month in the youth center. She was super pumped about this and told me and I was like "FUCK YEAH!" The plan was, I'd go up with Rose and we'd see what it's like. I asked my mom about it and at first she said she'd need more information (I could only remember vague stuff) and the second time when I went to her with more info she said she'd "think about it." A couple days before it was supposed to go down, I pestered her again since she still hadn't given me a clear yes or no answer. The answer was no. Why, you may ask?
The reasons she had were ludicrous. She just kept saying "I don't want you to go there, anyone could walk in and out of there." (It's a walk-in event.) So of course my first thought is "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" I asked her "What, do you think I'm stupid enough to walk out of there with someone?" There was a ten second pause before she said no. A ten second pause. Meaning yes, she think I'm that fucking stupid. I was livid, and I still am. She thought I was going to go and get raped or something! Because one of the oldest gay tropes is that all gay men are all rapist perverts. First of all, she got the stereotype wrong, and second of all what the actual fuck?! I would never walk out of there with ANYONE, and Rose wouldn't let me either way!
In my pissed ranting, I'd brought up the fact that I don't exactly get much support around home anyway, to which she said something along the lines of "We support you plenty." Because silently knowing and never talking about it at all totally counts as support. Yeah right.
Either way, even if they did support me, there's still some support I just can't get from them that I can only get from the gay community. Things like advice on how to come out to certain people, how to tell if someone is gay without rudely posing a blunt question, and what to do about really everything to do with dating (the whole construct of it is generally dependent on gender roles, but with two people of the same sex it's like what the fuck). This is the point I plan to pose some time near future since the next meeting is coming up soon. I still don't know exactly what it will be like though (Rose was allowed to go, but the meeting ended up being canceled due to flooding and repairs). But I am fucking determined to go to at least one meeting.
Part two of mistrust comes in the form of asking to have a sleepover. You can see where this is going. You can't blame my mom of being slightly skeptical of me wanting to have Rose over for a sleepover (she knows Rose is gay) but does she really not trust me that much? It's been a blunt no with bullshit excuses from the moment I first asked. We've been wanting to do a movie night sleepover for a while now. My mom's initial reason for saying no was "You'll have too much homework with the beginning of the new semester." She's never said no to a sleepover because of homework before, even when I've had projects due. Now she refuses to even give a reason and denies that she ever mentioned anything about homework since I came up with the solution of having a sleepover this weekend when we'll have no obligations to school due to being in between semesters. Once at dinner, I wouldn't stop interrogating her and we ended up in a stare-down for a minute straight. Ugh.
I know the real reason. She probably thinks we're going to try and have sex or something. She probably thinks Rose is my girlfriend (she isn't). Even if she was, why the fuck would I attempt anything like that with my parents right down the fucking hall?! That's just disgusting. Doing anything like that knowing that my parents are down the hall would be so wrong in so many ways. I can understand that she doesn't want to state her real reasoning because I'd get pissed, but her holding it back with the world's worst excuses is just pissing me off even more. But I think the worst part is I'm now finding out how little she trusts me. Thanks, mom.
And as a final touch, today I told my mom I was thinking of doing Rangers next year (I skipped this year, but now I really miss it). Her response was "Well, things won't be much different, meetings are only once a month." Using the same voice she used when she said no to GSA. The same voice she used when she said no to the sleepover. Wonderful.
I guess I should end this on a less whiny and more happy note. Rose has introduced me to a fabulous author, Julie Anne Peters. She's a lesbian who writes books about lesbians for lesbians. Her books are great. So far I've read Keeping You a Secret, She Loves Me She Loves Me Not, and Luna.
Finally, I found this spectacular band, Icon For Hire.
So I am finally finished first semester, praise Jesus. History was hell. I'm so glad it's over. I'm pretty sure I passed (I sure as hell hope I did). Now I just have to worry about science. I wasn't doing too good for a bit, but I got 100% on my CPT (culminating progress task, worth 10% of my mark) so that must have brought it up a bit. But them I went into the exam and probably fucked my mark. I had no idea what I was doing for half of the test. I ended up completely bullshitting it by doing things like putting a Wisdom of Confucius quote beside my BS answer (It does not matter how fast you go, so long as you do not stop) and answering a question about the "attitude" of an image with "sassy." I should be okay though.
In other news, I am sick. My nose won't stop dripping and if I wasn't jacked on Sinutab I'd probably be in bed writing my last will and testimony. Fucking wonderful. Hopefully I'm better by Monday, I'd like to be at school for the first day of second semester.
Now I'm going to talk about a bit of mistrust and homophobia. Let's start back at the beginning of January. Rose found this really awesome GSA set up on the next town over (it would only be a 20 minute drive though). It's basically a small support group for any LGBT person 26 and under that meets once a month in the youth center. She was super pumped about this and told me and I was like "FUCK YEAH!" The plan was, I'd go up with Rose and we'd see what it's like. I asked my mom about it and at first she said she'd need more information (I could only remember vague stuff) and the second time when I went to her with more info she said she'd "think about it." A couple days before it was supposed to go down, I pestered her again since she still hadn't given me a clear yes or no answer. The answer was no. Why, you may ask?
The reasons she had were ludicrous. She just kept saying "I don't want you to go there, anyone could walk in and out of there." (It's a walk-in event.) So of course my first thought is "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" I asked her "What, do you think I'm stupid enough to walk out of there with someone?" There was a ten second pause before she said no. A ten second pause. Meaning yes, she think I'm that fucking stupid. I was livid, and I still am. She thought I was going to go and get raped or something! Because one of the oldest gay tropes is that all gay men are all rapist perverts. First of all, she got the stereotype wrong, and second of all what the actual fuck?! I would never walk out of there with ANYONE, and Rose wouldn't let me either way!
In my pissed ranting, I'd brought up the fact that I don't exactly get much support around home anyway, to which she said something along the lines of "We support you plenty." Because silently knowing and never talking about it at all totally counts as support. Yeah right.
Either way, even if they did support me, there's still some support I just can't get from them that I can only get from the gay community. Things like advice on how to come out to certain people, how to tell if someone is gay without rudely posing a blunt question, and what to do about really everything to do with dating (the whole construct of it is generally dependent on gender roles, but with two people of the same sex it's like what the fuck). This is the point I plan to pose some time near future since the next meeting is coming up soon. I still don't know exactly what it will be like though (Rose was allowed to go, but the meeting ended up being canceled due to flooding and repairs). But I am fucking determined to go to at least one meeting.
Part two of mistrust comes in the form of asking to have a sleepover. You can see where this is going. You can't blame my mom of being slightly skeptical of me wanting to have Rose over for a sleepover (she knows Rose is gay) but does she really not trust me that much? It's been a blunt no with bullshit excuses from the moment I first asked. We've been wanting to do a movie night sleepover for a while now. My mom's initial reason for saying no was "You'll have too much homework with the beginning of the new semester." She's never said no to a sleepover because of homework before, even when I've had projects due. Now she refuses to even give a reason and denies that she ever mentioned anything about homework since I came up with the solution of having a sleepover this weekend when we'll have no obligations to school due to being in between semesters. Once at dinner, I wouldn't stop interrogating her and we ended up in a stare-down for a minute straight. Ugh.
I know the real reason. She probably thinks we're going to try and have sex or something. She probably thinks Rose is my girlfriend (she isn't). Even if she was, why the fuck would I attempt anything like that with my parents right down the fucking hall?! That's just disgusting. Doing anything like that knowing that my parents are down the hall would be so wrong in so many ways. I can understand that she doesn't want to state her real reasoning because I'd get pissed, but her holding it back with the world's worst excuses is just pissing me off even more. But I think the worst part is I'm now finding out how little she trusts me. Thanks, mom.
And as a final touch, today I told my mom I was thinking of doing Rangers next year (I skipped this year, but now I really miss it). Her response was "Well, things won't be much different, meetings are only once a month." Using the same voice she used when she said no to GSA. The same voice she used when she said no to the sleepover. Wonderful.
I guess I should end this on a less whiny and more happy note. Rose has introduced me to a fabulous author, Julie Anne Peters. She's a lesbian who writes books about lesbians for lesbians. Her books are great. So far I've read Keeping You a Secret, She Loves Me She Loves Me Not, and Luna.
Finally, I found this spectacular band, Icon For Hire.
Until next time,
~BookyGirl15~
Jan 19, 2013
Quick Update
I've been meaning to post here for weeks now, but I'm currently caught up in end-of-semester rush. During the lull between semesters one and two I'll post about the bucket load of shit that's gone down as of late. Talk to y'all then.
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